My Brother Joe

I met my other brother Joe

This year has been such a crazy year for me with everything that has went on this year. I got married at the end of last year, then got divorced the beginning of this year. I bought a house and moved into it in the spring. I met my oldest Brother Tom and his three beautiful daughters back in June, then in July, I was fortunate enough to meet my second to the oldest brother, Joe and his wife Tammy. They were the most amazing people, and such an inspiration for a relationship. Joe and Tammy were out for their 30th anniversary in Clearwater beach, and invited me to meet them. I was a little nervous meeting both my brothers and their families because I grew up with a very judgmental family, so I thought maybe they would be the same way, but man was I wrong. They were totally opposite.

I felt so comfortable spending time with them, I laughed and enjoyed myself the whole time. They are such amazing people. Both my older brothers really are the best kind of people that you want to know. They are both caring and genuine. They make you feel comfortable being around them as if it wasn't me meeting them for the first time. Joe and his wife invited me to hang out for dinner, then we went to a bar called sunset and we watched the sunset from the rooftop of the Pier 60 hotel bar. We had a sunset shot, and I had a glass of sangria as well. I had such a fun night meeting them, and cant wait to see them all again.

My body definitely isn't what it use to be, for the fact that I ended up getting ill from the drinks, and had to get my friend Greg to come drive my car home for me, and then my roommate give him a ride back to his car. lol The things we do to our bodies for the sake of enjoyment, is beyond my reasoning. I ended up getting sick on the way home, and decided that I wasn't going to drink again. I have never really been a drinker. I don't like to drink for the fun of it. Every time I decide to drink, I end up either throwing up, or I am left with a really bad headache before I even finish the first drink.

After meeting my brother, I had a trip planned to travel to Las Vegas to see my oldest for a few days. I will be flying out on the 10th and wont be back until the 16th. I was suppose to fly out to see Adam, but I just don't feel like that will be good for me mentally because of how things have been when we talk. We try to get along, to stay friends, but then everything ends up in an argument and I am always left as the bad guy in the end. I can't deal with the toxicity any longer. Its time I start to move on with my life and see where it takes me.

I have been so depressed lately. Seeing my brother and his wife truly put me in a better mood, but it also made me realize how much I truly wish I had someone I can grow old with. It also made me realize how I haven't truly met someone who appreciates and respects me the way a man should appreciate and respect a woman. I hope one day I find someone to show me that kind of love, but until then, I am going to keep loving myself the way I deserve! I don't really have much to say this blog, I actually have to finish packing before the airport, so I am going to get to it. I hope you all have a fun week, and I will try to write while I am in Las Vegas, and Arizona when I go to see my aunt for a couple days.

I will be blogging more often from now on, so expect to see a blog publish once a month at least.

Until next time,
Blessed be!

Kandie Angel

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