December is here!
I can't believe 2021 is already over!
This has been the craziest year of all for me! I have went through a divorce, moved and bought a new house, got into another new relationship, and somehow managed to put myself back in debt this year after getting myself out only a few months before that! I was injured in April, and couldn't work for about two months, then in July, I went to Arizona to visit my son, and ended up seeing someone I have known such a long time that snuck his way into my heart. Now I have managed to put myself in debt a bit, but I am working my but off to get out of it! I started doing flooring work with Jimmy to make some extra money, that way I can help pay off my debt quicker. I was doing really well financially at the beginning of the year and it got even better during the middle, then I over spent due to deaths and traveling, and now I am stressed on the daily! I have been trying to write this blog for December since the beginning of the month, but its truly hard finding time to sit down and write. I am so tired by the time I get home with Jimmy just from the driving time, I can't even imagine how tired he must be from doing stuff that I am unable to help with. I have truly gained a lot new level of respect for how hard he works and what he does throughout the day. I do love working with him though because I get to spend time with him throughout the day and learn a trade being his apprentice.
I honestly can't wait for this year to be over because I am making a ton of changes starting this next year, and Kandie is going to start taking care of Kandie! So, I lost my main OnlyFans page. I woke up the other day to my page being banned. I have fans messaging me asking me why I banned them, and I cant respond to their messages. I have tried and it keeps telling me that something went wrong. I emailed OnlyFans support to find out what is going on, and they emailed me back telling me that my account is under review and I have to wait for them to email me to get my account back. They wont tell me why they have banned me and they wont tell me for how long, but they said they will email me when they are ready to give me my account back. I don't know what the hell I am suppose to do to get my money for my bills, other than I have been going to work with Jimmy everyday so that I can at least feel like I am doing my part to make bills as well. He had me stay home today though since I had nothing to do as a helper, so I am able to take the time to write this blog for you all, get the house cleaned up, and get some chores done that I have been neglecting lately.
I have been thinking about going to the strip clubs to try and make some money to at least help pay off debt while Jimmy is helping me cover bills, or until I figure out another way to make bills every month. I don't think Jimmy wants me doing that, but I don't want him to start thinking of me as a burden to him. I know he said it wont happen, but all my ex's seen me as a burden at some point or another. I just wish I wouldn't feel like this. I know he doesn't feel that way, but my depression makes me so insecure at times. I do however know that he loves the hell out of me because as soon as I told him how I was feeling, he told me how he was feeling and he made me feel better instantly knowing that I don't have to worry about him leaving. He reassured me that he is staying the long hall and isn't leaving me because I'm down on my luck. Any relationship that someone gets into is going to have its ups and downs from life being hard, but when someone truly loves you, the two of you can make it through anything. That is how you know a relationship is worth fighting for, when the other person is there with you through the hard times, and doesn't walk away as soon as it gets rough. They stay with you and help you get through the rough patches together. You both help each other feel supported and not so alone when the world feels like its crashing down.
That is how you know a relationship is truly working hard for when the other person sees you struggling and does everything they can to try to stop you pain of stress. Jimmy is doing everything he can to try and keep me from stressing, and all I do is worry even though he tells me not to. I don't want him working himself to death to support me. We should be doing it together, not him doing it all alone. I just know that things are going to turn up soon though because I don't give up, I just need to keep holding on to hope for a little while and have a little faith that the universe is going to take care of me like it always has. I just wish it wasn't so stressful in the process.
So for all of you that thought I have blocked you on my OnlyFans page, I haven't. I have been banned on my main account for now without any form of notice, so I am using my new account which is:
Go follow me on that one, it is free as well. I just started posting my content on that one. I hope you all know that I love and appreciate every single one of you, so follow me on my new one so you see me post my daily showers and content that I make for you all! I can't wait to see you all there. I promise to have some hot new content for you all. I have a whole new way I am going to go about this profile so I don't get banned again! I will never totally disappear, as I have this website I can always make available for livestream as well, I have just been trying find the time to connect it all together to make it a little easier for me to run all this alone and make it easily connected together to make it more readily available to you all.. Give me time, I am still working on that with my IT guy.
Well my lovelies, I have things to get done today and I have to figure out what I am going to write for my January blog. I will be streaming on and off through the day while I finally take the time to get some things done around the house. I finally have the time since I stayed home today. I hope I can get it all done before Jimmy gets home that way I don't feel like a total deadbeat not working all day doing my part to make sure he has everything he needs since he is working and I am staying home at the moment. I hope you all have a blessed day, and I will see everyone on the flipside..
Until next time, Blessed Be.